BABY NIKO | NEWBORN PHOTOGRAPHER | STAFFORD, VIRGINIA

Everyone knows I adore newborn sessions. But sometimes you meet a family who lets you capture their entire love story. From photographing their gorgeous wedding to their life as fur parents I have seen their love grow in the most beautiful way. When Rachael emailed me that she was pregnant I started crying because nothing brings me more happiness than watching someone become a mom. These two made the transition into parenthood seem effortless. They are both naturals and born to be parents and their happiness seems to have tripled since the birth of their baby boy. It truly is amazing to watch. Not to mention baby Niko is the most adorable little dude. I am so incredibley happy for this gorgeous family and feel so lucky to have photographed them from the beginning! Here are some of my favorites:)

STRAWBERRY FIELDS | FAMILY PHOTOGRAPHER | FREDERICKSBURG VIRGINIA

This Spring has been an absolute whirlwind! I am still processing my beginning of the year goals and here we are half way through 2019. Welcome to toddler mommy life and running your own business! bIt still blows my mind that we are in week 2 of June. This weekend I thankfully blocked some time off so I could catch my breathe from what has been my craziest year to date. This year has already far exceeded my expectations for 2019 and I am just so eager to see what the rest of the year has in store. However, that MUCH needed refresh was an amazing way to catch up on some personal sessions that I have been dying to edit. One being our strawberry picking day!! I honestly don't even remember when we went but we had the most gorgeous breezy and overcast day, perfect for crazy photog mom to snap some shots while picking those yummy strawberries. We got to hang out with 2 of our favorite girls and we had an absolute blast! Last year I missed strawberry season and thankfully this year my friend was on top of it otherwise I would have missed it again! I am so excited about these photos!! And I hope you love them too! <3

National Infertility Awareness Week

Did you know that 1 in 8 couples will have difficulty conceiving or sustaining a pregnancy? That statistic is HUGE and a statistic that has drastically affected my life. This week is National Infertility Awareness Week and I wanted to take a minute to share a little bit about what this week means to me. I have rewritten what I wanted to say or share about 4 different times because this topic can be really tough for me. And as open as I have tried to be it has seriously impacted my life and my marriage and is still very much a struggle we continue to face.

This year feels very different to me and my feelings about our own infertility journey have really changed over the years. Last year we were riding the high of the birth of our little girl and felt like this was just the beginning of FINALLY having answers and being able to build our family. We had a long and hard road before finally starting IVF, but we had success with it! Success followed by a very incredible and smooth pregnancy. And all of that pain from an infertility diagnosis in 2014, to where we were now seemed to disappear the second I looked into Finley’s eyes for the first time.

It was the first time I openly talked about our struggle to get pregnant. It is also a lot easier to share about something difficult after you finally make it through the darkness. But our baby journey doesn’t end there. We still want a bigger family and there was no doubt in my mind that when the tug to build our family came back, that our results wouldn't be anything less than successful. It worked before, why wouldn't it work this time? What I wasn't prepared for was how to cope with a failure. Or how to accept the intense feelings of guilt and disappointment in myself like maybe I did something wrong, or ate something I shouldn't have, or didn't prepare enough, or didn’t get healthy enough this time around. I was also not prepared for all of those painful memories and emotions and doubt that I thought I had overcome suddenly resurface again. But this time throw in the feelings of shame because well we have such a blessing with Finley and how dare I be so greedy that I want another kid. This may sound crazy, but I cannot even count the times I have been told “at least you have Finley". Hearing this is like a punch in the gut because of course I am thankful for her every single day. But that doesn’t take away my pain or hope for her to experience a sibling and it certainly doesn’t make the disappointment of feeling like your body failed you any easier. It also doesn’t take away the giant pile of cash we just threw into the fire with nothing but anger and sadness to show for it.

There are so many tough conversations I have had play over and over in my head and for the first month after our attempt I really didn’t want to be around anyone. I was angry, and upset, and really just felt extremely resentful of the fact we had to deal with this all over again. I was never worried about adding another kid to our family, but now what if that doesn’t happen? How do I find peace in that and how do I become ok with that? Then of course you wonder how your spouse feels about it all. Because it wasn’t something that only affects me, he too is emotionally invested in this. I really tried to push away the things I was feeling because I wasn’t ready to answer these questions. All I wanted to do was hug Jeremy and Finley and cry and feel sorry for myself.

And I did that. For weeks. I had too, I had to let it out so I could move forward. Because one thing I have learned about being forced to deal with infertility is that this is not something I want to let consume my life anymore. For so long I lived and breathed the pain and anxiety of that diagnosis and it put our marriage into some of its darkest days. I felt like we paused our life and forgot what it was like to enjoy the little things. Jeremy and I have worked so incredibly hard on building up our marriage to a place where we can tackle any serious life event and only grow closer. We hit rock bottom emotionally in those early years of every month not getting pregnant and it sucked. I truly believe infertility has the ability to make your marriage or end it. And we made a choice and promise a long time ago to fight to the bitter end for each other and to choose each other every single day regardless of what we go through. So being the most incredible partner he is, he hugged me, bought me some champagne, and told me it was going to be ok. And we would get through this like we have gotten through everything else that has come before it. We have come so far together as a team and I needed to find a way to make peace with this failure inside myself so I that I could push on and be stronger for my daughter and for my husband.

So how did I snap out of this sadness? The first thing I did was join a Resolve Support group. And i took the toughest step of actually going to a meeting. I needed a place where I could cry and talk about how I was feeling but among people who understood the toll this road can take on you. From this group I connected with others who share in this pain of building their family but more importantly I found a group that understood what I was going through it because they too are in the thick of it with me.

I also really started journaling and when I get negative I have tried to turn each thing into a positive. Jeremy and I have been through some really tough life events in the last 8 years of marriage and I am trying really hard to focus on the positive that came from every single one of those things. Because I refuse to believe it’s all just random back luck. This exercise has really changed my mental well being and really made me feel much better about things not always working out the way you think they should. I have been able to unload a little baggage and most of the heartbreak so I can move forward and continue living.

I also threw myself into my business. I work my butt off every single day but I really just needed to be around clients who shared in this joy of celebrating their family. From day one that has been the most amazing way to cope with infertility. Some say I am crazy to focus on maternity and newborn because it’s a constant reminder of my struggle but honestly it just makes it that much more special for me to document. Because I know how priceless every photo I have taken of my family is and to give someone that gift is the greatest feeling of all. It is also the thing that brings me so much joy and inner peace. And every once in awhile I meet a mom and dad who also had their own infertility struggle and whether we have more kids or not I feel so incredibly lucky to continue to meet people who fought their fight to build their family in the way that was meant for them.

So during this week I ask everyone who may not directly be affected by infertility to take a minute and learn a little bit about it. Here is a great resource to gain a little understanding. Because the more infertility is talked about the more it doesn’t seem so terrifying or feel so shameful. It’s a road that is hard and looks so different to every person it affects and it should not be fought alone! And If you are someone who is dealing with this I would love to hear your story. Because you are not alone and I promise you will get through this.

~Laura

Finley on her 2nd transfer anniversary.  Was during our 2 week wait and is my reminder that everything will be ok :)

Finley on her 2nd transfer anniversary. Was during our 2 week wait and is my reminder that everything will be ok :)

NICOLE MATERNITY | MATERNITY PHOTOGRAPHER | MANASSAS, VIRGINIA

Every January I feel so refreshed from the holidays and excited to see what kind of sessions the new year will bring. That first session always has high expectations because you’ve taken a little shooting breather and just dying to get back out there and create. WELL. This year certainly started off better than I could have imagined.

We had originally planned this session in December but with her hubby’s deployment schedule we needed to push it until after the 1st. When we made the switch she asked if I thought it could snow. I knew it was possible but the weather was so crazy in 2018 I didn’t think it was going to happen. I never know what crazy ideas the weather has up it’s sleeve. In sticking with that crazy Virginia weather, not only was our original weekend a rainy mess, but our new date brought us SNOW!! I couldn’t believe it. Like no joke started snowing as I was driving to the session. It was incredible. It was pretty freezing but these 3 were such troopers and we got some of my favorite shots of all time!! Take a look at my favorites!

GOOCH FAMILY VACAY 2019

Jeremy and I have been vacationing to the OBX almost every year since we got married. We got married in Kitty Hawk and whenever we need to unwind and relax it really is the only place that makes sense for us. There is something about the salt air and the sound of crashing waves that really seems to rejuvenate us.

This was our second vacation as a family of 3 plus 2 pups and was by far one of the greatest experiences I have ever had. We stayed in a pet friendly VRBO right on the water and spent 4 nights. Every day we were on the beach for hours walking up and down searching for purples (smooth purple shell pieces) and sea glass which is a tradition we started before we were married. Fin LOVED hunting for shells and exploring, and was mesmerized by the surfers. She even got upset when they crashed! The most amazing part of our trip was watching Finley embrace the beach life and fall in love with it as much as Jeremy and I have over the years. Overall our trip was one of my favorite vacations and cannot wait to go back! There is so much I could share about it but I would rather share some of our photos!! Below are a TON of my favorites :) Hope you enjoy them as much as we do!!

BABY SANTINO | NEWBORN PHOTOGRAPHER | ALDIE, VIRGINIA

Meet baby Santino! This little cutie pie has already come to see me for his 6 month session and I cannot even believe how fast he is growing! I loved being welcomed into this amazing family’s home to capture their lifestyle newborn session. Santino was such a good sleeper and made my job so easy! We even had the opportunity to shoot a few outdoor shots which you know i was SO excited for!! Here are a few of my favorites:

WHITNEY MILK BATH | MATERNITY PHOTOGRAPHER | STAFFORD, VIRGINIA

This gorgeous mama and I met years ago when we both worked at Panera! She met her hubby there, fell in love, and are now welcoming their baby boy. When she contacted me about her maternity session she wasn’t sure what kind of session she wanted but when she decided on a milk bath I was ecstatic! Everything about her session was gorgeous. Motherhood looks gorgeous on you Whitney!! Here are my favorites!

JESSIE MATERNITY | MATERNITY PHOTOGRAPHER | VIRGINIA

Having the opportunity to photograph your friend’s maternity session is really something special. I have had the pleasure of capturing not one but two of her pregnancies!! We met years ago at a newborn workshop and have been instant friends ever since. She has captured my pregnancy journey and my family portraits many times and has been such a support for me personally and professionally.

This gorgeous mama is now the mother to 4 amazing kiddos . Jessie is a great friend/photographer friend and I have loved every minute of our photo adventures!! We lucked out big time with weather for this session and were able to explore a gorgeous private flower farm. Here are a few of my favs of this GORGEOUS FAMILY!

BABY LILIANA | NEWBORN PHOTOGRAPHER | STAFFORD, VIRGINIA

Meet gorgeous baby Liliana! This little beauty surprised her mom and dad a few weeks early! We had just shot their families maternity session and she surprised us all! She was an absolute doll baby and was so perfect at her newborn session. She has the most beautiful little features and I loved all of her setups! Here are some of my favs!

NADIA MATERNITY | MATERNITY PHOTOGRAPHER | MANASSAS, VIRGINIA

Yesterday’s warm weather reminded me of the magic that happened last summer! I had SO many incredible clients and sessions and this maternity session was ONE OF THEM!! This adorable couple was getting ready to welcome their baby boy and their session was amazing! The love these 2 share is off the charts and the entire session was just one beautiful photo after the next! Narrowing down favorites was tough but here were some :):)